#AVTFTW

Hey wassup dudes !

Had a pretty awesome day with my future coursemates todaaaay !! AVT FTW ~ It's only like less than half the whole course but yeah , super fun people to be with . If school would be like today for the whole of the next 3 years .........

Went to Istana Park to play games and stuffs , must break the ice first yaaaa ~

#nowdancing SNSD's The Boys 

....the only group photo hmm....

With Christine bby !!

With our AVT OMMA , Syafiqah !!

#nowdancing MissA's Goodbye Baby

With LiWen , Jasmine and Reeve !! #DANCERS 

AVT MAKNAE LIWEN !!

#coollikethat /winks

Ahem ...... Have to put this up , definitely !! 

You-know-what-they'd-be-like ......

Had a really crazey day laughing at super insane stuffs at Scape , and we created of Avt family tree which is like aww man complicated hahahaha . /dying/ And we definitely have loads of kpoppers heree , but I'm the oldest one hehe I FEEL OLD . Oh and fahrenheit stans , of course we do hell yeah . We're gonna rock the whole of SOE mannnn ! 

PS/ Still feeling damn highhhhh omggggggg .

xoxo

#foreveralone

Hey sweeties . 

Omg I haven't been posting for the entire weeek when I'm actually pretty free ~~~ Sorry yeah . I really didn't have a very good week . Too much thoughts about too many things . Feeling like a nobody to anyone in this world . I hate my life , I really do . No matter if it's school , outside school , fangirls and stuffs , I FEEL ALONE ..

Even though I've this great and awesome LG , I still feel alone with them . Don't ask me why but yeah , feeling super inferior now .. Well these photos were taken during our LG cooking session at Xueli's house .

I was pretty shag , so yeah the photos didn't turn out nice . );

Since this is still like the starting of the brand new week , would it be the same ? Feeling left out in every single ways and whatever . Friends leaving me one by one yeah . Sometimes I just really don't want to lose them but what can I do if they changed ? What can I do if they want to leave ? No matter how sad I am or whatsoever , I'd just let them go then ... NO CHOICE .

Okay I'll try to be the best me again ...................

MESSED UP LIFE;

Sup dudes .

Great day out with the volleyball girls celebrating Shiyuan and Rene's birthday at Marina Barrage !! It was super sunny with that scorching sun but it was super windy . 

Omg my photos are in a messed ........... Whatever .

Loveeee camwhoring with Juliaaa ~~ ^^ and the girls of course .

Life is not what it is meant to be , but I believe someday everything will go right . I just got to keep believing .... What is meant to be is meant to be . OKAY WHUT I'M SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THESE .

At the end of my wits , I've nothing to think about .. I AM LITERALLY GOING CRAZY . What's with all the fuckery going on and damned , attention seeking NAH . Somehow I really need to know how to express my feelings . 

All the tiniest bit of things in life , all the minuscule gestures .... Nothing seems like it's going right . Everything just looks wrong . I feel like I'm going to explode any moment and cry . I need internal peace . 

And just at this horrible moment ... JONGHYUN NEEDS TO HAVE A TWITTER ACCOUNT . WHUT LIKE SERIOUSLY WHY NOT STAY AT ME2DAY . I'm not against jjong having a twitter account , instead it should be a good thing for me isn't it ? But the fact that he'd be harassed by thousands of comments each day , or even anti fans starts to target him and shower him with hate comments . Is he just gonna suffer like that ... And the worst part is I CAN'T DO ANYTHING TO PROTECT HIM . 

I know , I'd definitely not able to control myself and tweet him like a mad woman so yes , best to not have it right . Now it's not even a definite legit , it's just most probably yeah . WHAT SHIT . I've been trying to do my best as a Shawol but still I'm standing in the same spot . Fangirl like a insane bitch , and I only get haters , and well some fanservice as a bonus . WHAT KIND OF LIFE AM I LEADING ?! 

S.P.E.E.C.H.L.E.S.S