#AVTFTW

Hey wassup dudes !

Had a pretty awesome day with my future coursemates todaaaay !! AVT FTW ~ It's only like less than half the whole course but yeah , super fun people to be with . If school would be like today for the whole of the next 3 years .........

Went to Istana Park to play games and stuffs , must break the ice first yaaaa ~

#nowdancing SNSD's The Boys 

....the only group photo hmm....

With Christine bby !!

With our AVT OMMA , Syafiqah !!

#nowdancing MissA's Goodbye Baby

With LiWen , Jasmine and Reeve !! #DANCERS 

AVT MAKNAE LIWEN !!

#coollikethat /winks

Ahem ...... Have to put this up , definitely !! 

You-know-what-they'd-be-like ......

Had a really crazey day laughing at super insane stuffs at Scape , and we created of Avt family tree which is like aww man complicated hahahaha . /dying/ And we definitely have loads of kpoppers heree , but I'm the oldest one hehe I FEEL OLD . Oh and fahrenheit stans , of course we do hell yeah . We're gonna rock the whole of SOE mannnn ! 

PS/ Still feeling damn highhhhh omggggggg .

xoxo

#foreveralone

Hey sweeties . 

Omg I haven't been posting for the entire weeek when I'm actually pretty free ~~~ Sorry yeah . I really didn't have a very good week . Too much thoughts about too many things . Feeling like a nobody to anyone in this world . I hate my life , I really do . No matter if it's school , outside school , fangirls and stuffs , I FEEL ALONE ..

Even though I've this great and awesome LG , I still feel alone with them . Don't ask me why but yeah , feeling super inferior now .. Well these photos were taken during our LG cooking session at Xueli's house .

I was pretty shag , so yeah the photos didn't turn out nice . );

Since this is still like the starting of the brand new week , would it be the same ? Feeling left out in every single ways and whatever . Friends leaving me one by one yeah . Sometimes I just really don't want to lose them but what can I do if they changed ? What can I do if they want to leave ? No matter how sad I am or whatsoever , I'd just let them go then ... NO CHOICE .

Okay I'll try to be the best me again ...................

MESSED UP LIFE;

Sup dudes .

Great day out with the volleyball girls celebrating Shiyuan and Rene's birthday at Marina Barrage !! It was super sunny with that scorching sun but it was super windy . 

Omg my photos are in a messed ........... Whatever .

Loveeee camwhoring with Juliaaa ~~ ^^ and the girls of course .

Life is not what it is meant to be , but I believe someday everything will go right . I just got to keep believing .... What is meant to be is meant to be . OKAY WHUT I'M SICK AND TIRED OF ALL THESE .

At the end of my wits , I've nothing to think about .. I AM LITERALLY GOING CRAZY . What's with all the fuckery going on and damned , attention seeking NAH . Somehow I really need to know how to express my feelings . 

All the tiniest bit of things in life , all the minuscule gestures .... Nothing seems like it's going right . Everything just looks wrong . I feel like I'm going to explode any moment and cry . I need internal peace . 

And just at this horrible moment ... JONGHYUN NEEDS TO HAVE A TWITTER ACCOUNT . WHUT LIKE SERIOUSLY WHY NOT STAY AT ME2DAY . I'm not against jjong having a twitter account , instead it should be a good thing for me isn't it ? But the fact that he'd be harassed by thousands of comments each day , or even anti fans starts to target him and shower him with hate comments . Is he just gonna suffer like that ... And the worst part is I CAN'T DO ANYTHING TO PROTECT HIM . 

I know , I'd definitely not able to control myself and tweet him like a mad woman so yes , best to not have it right . Now it's not even a definite legit , it's just most probably yeah . WHAT SHIT . I've been trying to do my best as a Shawol but still I'm standing in the same spot . Fangirl like a insane bitch , and I only get haters , and well some fanservice as a bonus . WHAT KIND OF LIFE AM I LEADING ?! 

S.P.E.E.C.H.L.E.S.S 

Disappointed faces;

Hey homies how's life so far man .

I've got to say life can be better than this man . I'm totally not looking for the life I'm leading nowww . Always being alone .. Well it may not technically alone ya but y'know the emotionally alone . 

Went for some NP event yesterday , which I really regretted . First time in my life I've like disappointments with NP's events . It's supposed to be flea yeaah , so went there with the #apaches rather early ... The flea was like omg boring , and there were only a few booths . I totally should've went lg man . 

I tried to camwhore to like y'know , prevent myself from being that bored ...

Blah , overall still bored . I even left halfway cos I was too tired to even stay . Crap uh , maybe I shouldn't be too overly enthu over NP stuffs anymore ... Feel like a total idiot . Everybody was like asking what happened to me and stuffs . Worst still , I'm not close to anyone there ... Oh and they can't stop asking me if my 'bestfriend' is coming . But seriously ?? SINCE WHEN DO I HAVE A BESTFRIEND GRR .

Whatever , I'm not going to be bothered by that . Irresponsibility issues all over again . Can never let them understand the point so yeap , don't bother . 

Still , there was this 1 thing I'm happy about ... REBECCA BEING HAPPY !! Finally saw that babe , and she was like mad asdfghjkl happy uh , HAPPYGIRLBECKY . I'm so happy for herr !

Seeing her like this make me wanna enter poly so badlyyyyy . Really can't wait for school to start ! Met several of my coursemates on fb alrd , hopefully we'll get to know each other better ! 

PS/ I WANNA BE A NINJA .
PSS// HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHAWN LEE !

xoxo

USS

Heyy lovelies how was your weeek .

I had a greaaat day at USS on thurday , which was 2nd Feb , with my family !! So glad quite a number of us went yaaay ! Took all the great rides and it was awesome , not very scary though hahaa .

My mum and my aunt damn kewt huh hahhaa .

Alright , I was just feeling like a loner again these days . I mean seriously , I don't know if I'm one . I realised I'm forever tweeting , but nobody ever replies unless I tweet them . I've been blogging , and there was no comments before . And people usually don't talk about my blog , or they prolly don't even view it . Saddening max , I know . 

I'm not those people who will tweet like #foreveralone on Valentines Day or so , I tweet that when I really actually feel like I'm #foreveralone . 

I've been swaying on God's faith , and I really cannot . 

What can I do ?!

I really can't wait to move on to poly dins , young adults service . Maybe then I'll be more mature and stuffs . I don't know , I really have no idea . 

Trying to plan my schedules till it's packed , but nah , still so much free time to realise I'm #foreveralone .

OMG YOU KNOW I WAS SO TOUCHED TODAY . Sist came to find me at work , and lunched with me in my shop ! I was totally like AWW , and she bought me food and water . I really feel so omg yaa I love my sist . 

I'm going shopping alone tomorrow , and I really hope I'll have a good time with myself . I have to learn to be independent !! And I'm also going for dance with Amy at night . Can't waitt ! 

XOXO