SOBS .
It's just like week 6 and all the shitty 'friendship' stuffs is happening . I mean like seriously , it's so secondary school isn't it ? We're supposed to be mature poly students , we're even considered young adults but we're all acting like kids .
I mean , isn't it just basic courtesy to let your friend know that you're not meeting her ? You don't let her wait like a bloody moron for you right ? It's like common sense hello . Just one simple text that states you can't meet her today , is it really that hard ?
It's like so secondary school , like kids , no common sense no basic courtesy at all . Oh well what can I do , SUCK IT UP .
And doing stuffs like this after a super long apology text just makes no sense to me , seriously . WHAT IRONY .
In the first place , it isn't even entirely your fault . I'm at fault being all sensitive like I am like that . And the feeling of being USED by someone is really not good , I swear .
I was USED because of you , I was USED to make you happy , I was USED to let you get closer to him , I was USED to let you both get together and I was USED even after your breakup . Just how happy do you want me to be after being USED like that .
WOW OH WOW
I'm amazed that I can endure all these shits previously . I mean if I'm still in secondary school I'd definitely have flare and rage like a kid . But I thought you would understand , and show me more care and concern like you never did . Well , I got more shits .
Am I supposed to endure all these as well ?! Maybe I should right . JUST SUCK IT UP .
I always care about everyone around me , always protecting my loved ones , just like a mother you said . And now it's like all my 'hard work' didn't pay off . It's just my caring and protecting becomes like a bloody busybody .
I GET IT I REALLY DO .
So now I'm just gonna start to learn to love myself more , protect and care for myself instead of being a bloody busybody . I'm going to mind my own business , not gonna care about how you're hurt . I just have to learn to not bother at all .
It's hard for me to not care about my friends like you , but I'll learn .
SOBS
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